The reason I want to travel. The reason I want a rich girlfriend.
Month: November 2010
I’ll readily admit I’m a slow learner. To balance this, usually when I learn a lesson I learn it well. Usually this works out for me. Sometimes it backfires like old chevy’s.
I just realized that I haven’t really loved anyone since my very first love. And by love – I really mean, surrendered my heart totally. I’m probably not the only person whose learned that lesson a little too well. But ever since that first dust-up with love I’ve learned to only fall in like with girls whom I know couldn’t really do the damage to me that I experienced on my first flirtation with true love. [Usually by picking a girl cute enough to bring out in public but with some minor flaw that I put the 3rd grade-genius double bifocal magnifying glass on] This has manifested in a lot of at arms-length relationships, nonsensical fault-finding, and making sure that I dumped the girl before she could dump me. “Silly, Stupid, Fool!!” you say? I know. Now at least.
But up til now I didn’t realize that it was on purpose – I really just thought all my relationships weren’t meant to be. The truth is any of the girls that I really liked I could have built a solid relationship out of – but inside I just couldn’t bring myself to. Sometimes being safe = Being sorry.
I’m a self-saboteur of the highest caliber. A home-grown terrorist of the heart. Smh.
Anyway – now that I have denial out the way – I should be able to make a relationship last, right? ….. Right? Lol. Pray for me.
This might just be dope to anime head’s like myself. Naahhhh..Its just dope.Period.
Watch. Discuss. Repeat.
p.s. Peep the ref’s to Malcolm Gladwell, Seth Godin.