I recently had a long talk with a good friend about some of my concerns surrounding commitment.
Something about having to spend everyday with someone for the rest of your life, with no route of escape, makes me shiver a bit inside.
He thought that some of my fear might be related to the pressure that comes with making a lifelong commitment to someone else. He says that pressure is going to produce some stress, and what it squeezes out of me may not always be pretty.
So I’m trying to come to terms with the maelstrom of emotions inside and trying to tease out what is healthy and real, and what is fear.
It. aint. easy.
Also, there is this concept I just ran across – courtesy of this blog that talks about the limits of knowledge and thus the limit of reason. Being that logic operates on the back of our available knowledge – we must not forget how much we don’t know.
The fact that we actually know so little should give us pause as we try to “engineer” our lives.
For me this is super important because my primary sensory organ is my brain. I try to slice the world up into digestible pieces and avoid anything that doesn’t intellectually make sense. Not only that, I tend to be VERY dismissive of things or people who operate from a framework that uses anything other than logic as a basis.
This is perhaps short-sighted. Maybe not in the realm of things like Vaccines or breakfast cereals but perhaps in the wider world of human interactions, love, etc.
In those fields, logic may not reign supreme. You might need to lean on things like faith, hope, and trust.
working it out.